This has been such a wonderful weekend, I don't want it to end!

Saturday Sean worked so I got to play with the kids all day. It was freezing outside, so we stayed indoors. Roo and Ian played with balls and with her toy airplane, and then when she napped he and I did science projects and played Wii Fit. When Sean got home we had dinner together, then Roo went to bed. We made popcorn and hot chocolate, snuggled under the blankets, and Ian, Sean, and I watched "Up," which was a wonderful movie!

Today we started the day with breakfast and coffee, then I went to a new Church (which was great, but I'm not sure if it feels like "home"), came home and had lunch, then we went over to my brother's house to watch the worst football game in history, eat a big Irish dinner with everyone (parents included), and then we came home. I got to study for about 3 hours, and now I'm heading in to bed, provided Roo settles in...

Some days I feel useless, and then other days I feel like I really have my mojo on. Yesterday and today were mojo days for me, and I actually left work feeling pretty pleased with myself. I got a lot of nice things said about me, and it was by people I thought were clueless that I was even an employee there, LOL!

Had a nice night last night at dinner, then had another viewing of New Moon. Unfortunately when we left the theater they had closed off the rest of th mall, so we had to heft ourselfs alllllll the way round the outside of the mall, freezing, to get to our cars. That sucked! I also realized that I'm getting old because I can't see worth a damn driving in the dark, and I made a wrong turn and almost killed myself driving off the road. Perhaps I should get that checked or something?

I'm struggling with something right now. I completed something that will really help my family out if we're approved for, but I am having a really hard time hitting "send." It's a sort of pride thing, but not really. I'm not sure why I'm struggling so much, but I have to get over it and do what I have to do for my family. I'm a big girl now, and it's time to start acting like it.

Sean and I had it out today. I am drained, but I do have a lot to think about. The problems were ones that I suspected, but I had to d-r-a-w them out of him tooth and nail, so I know that he knows they're unjust expectations. (I have tried to be super-wife, super-mom, super-employee, super-student, but I just cannot do it all and not feel overwhelmed, used, and resentful). My issues were the old song-and-dance with just about the same response I always get, but at least one of my demands were heard and will be dealt with: I no longer have to be responsible for the bills. YAY!!!!

Funny, because the comment I got was, "Are you sure? Because things will be very different if I take them over. We won't do stuff if we don't have the money to do it!" Seriously?   What the hell does he think I've been trying implement all the times I say, "No, we don't have the money for x,y,z."? I am so happy he's going to be responsible for the bottom line because he's going to see (finally!) that the bottom line is much lower than he thinks.