I wonder sometimes about people. Well, I wonder all the time about people as a human race goes, but specific things about people seem to take up a lot of time of my active brain power.

The funny thing is that it seems that the people closest to me are making me the most curious. My husband, for one, is totally clueless it seems. He even made a comment to me today about how I have been "calmer" for the past week, and that I haven't "given him shit" for a while about things. This at first made me think that I should be upset, because if he really sees me as a nag then that can't be a good sign. But, I do know what he really means, and I'm just curious to see how much longer he's going to like the new me or if it's going to get old. Considering the fact he married me (so he says) in part was because of my "fire" and my "passion" for things, you'd think that this new laissez-faire attitude would make him wonder. Just now he called and asked me a question that before would have pissed me off and I would have let him know because, once again, I feel like he's choosing something over his family, but the new me just told him "Fine" and left it at that. He's probably loving it now, but we'll see what happens as the months go by and I just don't give enough to care.

I hope to adopt the same attitude with work. For as long as I'm stuck back there I plan to just do what I'm paid to do, then come home and forget all about it.

Since I decided that I'm tired of caring, tired of trying to make things work with people people who are just out for themselves, and tired of it feeling like I'm smashing my head (or, heart) against a wall and getting nowhere, thus making the decision to keep my heart out of everything I do, it's been so much easier. Smooth sailing all the way!