I've been thinking about changing my outlook on things. I'm wondering if it's possible to remain positive about life yet also remain in an "I don't care" frame of mind. I truly believe that might be the way to go for right now, because I'm tired of the disappointment and the hurt feelings.

I tried to have a serious discussion with someone the other night and was basically blown off. It wasn't their fault per se, but it's so seldom that I actually open up and say what's hurting me or scaring me that, to be dismissed by either their inability to listen the way I needed them to or whatever, it just proved again why I need to keep my mouth shut and just continue to do things on my own. I NEVER cry in front of people and this time I did, and that just angers me more.

I know that you miss out on a lot when you shut down, but I've always been OK as Jenn-on-her-own. It would be worth it to miss out on the highs if I could stop the lows...