I'm going out of town for a week and I think it's just what I need. I'm pissed off at my life outside of the home/work genre, and I'll be pretty happy to get away for a while. I'm going to make some changes when I return, and the type of changes I'm making are going to create some "drama" for a little bit. It won't last long, surely, but any drama is too much drama for me.

I have finally decided to remove the things in life that bring me down or make me feel badly about myself- I just don't have the desire to waste energy on them any more. I have so much happening in my life that I can't find space in it to focus on things that don't make me happy or that don't help me achieve my goals.

There will me no more hoping that something will happen or not happen, no more "waiting" for things that are out of my control, no more feeling like I'm missing out on things, no more second-guessing myself... I'm putting myself first because I deserve it. I'm going forward with my life and I refuse to waste any more time looking at where I've been or thinking about where I "could" be, because I'm pretty darn happy where I am and I want to focus on that.