I am so annoyed with this case at work. This client has been sitting in jail since AUGUST and the State Attorney on the case decided today, when we're scheduled for a non-jury trial, to request a continuance in the case because she wants her own damn psychologist to evaluate my client.

Seriously? Talk about a waste of tax dollars! I suggested to the Public Defender that she file a motion for dismissal based on failure to prove the case by State's burden, not to mention the fact that a continuance at this late date is almost criminal! She agreed and went back to her office to daft one up for court tomorrow afternoon.

*sigh* Some days I hate my job.

Ian is still sick. My parent's watched him today and his fever is around 100.2 even with Tylenol. I thought he might have roseola again, but from what I've read he's too old and multiple infections are rare. Of course Ian is "different", so he may very well have it again!

Ian's sick now. I seemed to have passed on my creeping crud. Poor kid is pretty miserable, and I forsee him not making it to camp tomorrow. I loved spending $145 for a short week anyway, but this is horrible. Ugh.

We got the kids' pictures done today. I was super excited about it, but then I got so sick I hardly cared any more. I did manage to get a few cute outfits together though. If you can believe it, I kept Ian safe and clean until 11am when he ran through the kitchen and busted his face on the counter. *sigh*

We got to the place and I was excited because the baby who went before us was smiling and laughing, and Roo is such a ham I knew she'd do great. I was wrong though, because they changed the photographer and she and Roo did not click. Roo was a trooper and held it together until the end, so the sibling shot we got wasn't the best...


This one just screams out her personality.

I was sitting in Court today thinking about marriage. I was thinking about what makes a good marriage, if I have a good marriage, and wondering if I would ever consider changing my life/disrupting everything I have and know in order to pursue something I don't even know exists. I began thinking about the past; who I knew, what I did, what I thought I wanted back then vs. where I am now... And suddenly I saw someone who literally took my breath away.

I haven't seen this person in over 5 years. He is the epitome of my past, representing everything I was and everything that I was striving for "back then". He is someone that I cared deeply for, yet who also tested my resolve (he was married, and I was attempting to be the kind of person I could be proud of by the time I met him ). I may have tested the waters if I hadn't met Sean a few months into knowing this guy, but things happen the way they're supposed to, right?

I don't believe in coincidences. I damn well know that there is a reason he showed up while I was thinking what I was thinking, and I also know that there is a good reason why we were in a situation where we couldn't speak to each other while he was there. I've been thinking about it for days, and it's messing up my head something fierce.

I hate to admit that I've been checking my old email to see if he sends me something. I still have a bunch of emails he sent me that I've saved, but I haven't been "there" yet, and I don't plan to. I just want to know why our paths have crossed again after so much time, and I am anxious to know if they'll cross again or if this was a one time thing.