I'm trying so hard to make a decision. I feel like I know what I should do, but then the "what if" situations happen and I feel guilty for even considering it. I can't keep on like this, that's for sure- I'm sick to my stomach every day and I spend my nights worrying that I forgot a client, or forgot to do something, or I'm going to get in trouble for not doing something else...

This is no way to live.