I'm trying to put a positive spin on everything in an effort to make my life more... happy. I don't really know what my problem is, other than I feel stuck. I hate wanting something so badly but have absolutely no way of getting it- at least for now. Being stagnant is no fun, but it's even less fun when you have no feasible way to get moving again.

I am spending a lot of time focusing on my kids. I've always been sure to spend time with Ian and now, of course Roo, but lately I've been really paying attention. I put Ian in Karate two days a week, so that's a time for all three of us to be together. I make sure to play board games with Ian when Roo is asleep and, when she's awake, I spend time actually playing with her. I sit on the floor with her and sing, make funny faces, try different toys with her. I feel more connected to them now, and in turn I feel calmer and more aware of what I want in my life. I've made sure to make time to see my friends and have some "me" time as well as going to Chuch every week. I've been making an effort to be gentle with my husband too, and our relationship seems to be right on track.  So, all-in-all I have nothing to complain about!

It's hard though, when things start to snowball. I was feeling down, then a few things happened to make me a bit more depressed, then the Universe desided to dump some stress on top of that with some family strife and a termite invasion... I made good use of the postive thinking tools I've learned in Church as well as the ears of a few friends, and I think I'm beginning to find my way back to the happiness I've been missing.