I'm sitting here listening to a CD that I bought about 2 years ago. I bought it during an amazingly chaotic time in my life, and the memories that are flooding through my mind are amazing. I'm remembering my old job when I worked with someone I was quite close to at the time, doing something that I thought I was pretty good at and enjoyed very much. It was a time when I was a the peak of learning and figuring out my spirituality and where it stood in my life. I was meeting new friends, and I was excited about a new pregnancy.

Of course like everything does, things changed very quickly. The relationships I was so comfortable in changed and some disappeared completely. I lost two pregnancies. I left my job. I stopped doing the creative things I was focusing on. I began to question my Faith...

But, all-in-all I wouldn't change one bit of it. I look at where I am now and, although my life is not perfect, I am blessed. I have a wonderful new daughter, Ian is well and happy, Sean is doing as best as he can and is healthy, my mom survived breast cancer for the second time, my friends whom have remained in my life are sources of great comfort to me, I have a job that's afforded me a lot of freedom, and I still have my Faith. The lessons I'm learning are amazing as well. At 30-something I continue to slip up sometimes, but regaining my foothold his getting easier and the circumstances are less painful each time around. I still have a lot to learn, but I truly think I'm getting there.