Today did not go as planned and I'm disappointed. I was expecting company but it didn't pan out, so instead I caught up with some other people I have missed and studied. Not quite what I was anticipating, but I guess it was meant to be.

I can't believe I go back to work in two and a half weeks. I try not to think about it because I start getting panicked when I do. I wish I could find a way to be home like I was with my last job, but I know I can't right now. I've been reminding myself of this since I first got pregnant so I'm prepared, but it's still hard for my heart to accept. I've gone from thinking of taking infants into my home (God knows I have enough stuff for 10 kids here but I don't even know where to look to offer that), to frantically searching job sites, but I know now is not the time to consider a job change. I should just be thankful that I have a job for now...

I have people coming over tomorrow and on Thursday. I hope they'll be a distraction for me because I'm beginning to get depressed.