I had a huge temperature drop this morning and I'm so upset! My chart was looking so good this month: Totally different than the months since my miscarriage! I was holding out hope without even knowing it, so seeing today's temperatures felt like a kick in the face.

I never thought it would be this hard to get pregnant again. With each pregnancy I got pregnant our first month of not preventing, so this seems like torture! I keep trying to put a positive spin on it but it's getting harder and harder to do every month..

I'm going to step back the next two months. With the holidays approaching I want to enjoy them fully and without the distractions I'm facing now. My family deserves all of me, not just the part that isn't focused on TTC!