Roo's ultrasound came back clear! She's fine! There's no sign of the mass anymore. I can't believe it!!!!!

After her scan the tech told us that we'd get the results in a few days. I couldn't do that; I knew I'd be a basket case during the holiday, so I told her that she had an appointment the next day with the doctor. I asked if I could pick everything up, and she told me that I could have the films but not the report because the report has to be given through the doctor. I didn't have the heart to tell her that I had gotten the report 2 times prior to this, LOL! However, by requesting the information I ended up screwing myself because she printed out the films and made a note to fax the report to the doctor. I knew they wouldn't include the report with the films if the films were done already! *sigh*

So, we came home. Roo napped and I worked, then at around 1pm I called the hospital to order the films in hopes that she hadn't gotten the packet together yet. The woman said, "They're here and ready. I guess they thought you were coming to get them this morning?" so I knew I was screwed. I decided to call the doctor's office and tell them the report was going to be coming in, and that I wanted a copy of it so I'd be in to pick it up after they called.

The nurse called me back in about 20 minutes and said she was confused. I told her the whole story (minus the part about ordering the films), and she said, "So what time is her appointment tomorrow?" I explained there was no appointment but I had told them there was, and they said that they'd fax the report. Then I told her that I wanted a copy for my records. The nurse was still confused, so I basically said I had the scan done, the report was going to be faxed, and when it was I was coming in to get a copy. She told me that she'd need an appointment, and I told her that I didn't have one, knew I wouldn't get one before the holiday, and that I would in to pick up the report the next day. She said she'd call me back.

They ended up calling the hospital and getting the report. The doctor looked it over for me, and the nurse called to tell me that it was CLEAR!!! No more mass!

I sat here and cried for a good 10 minutes after that call. All the guilty feelings I've had, all the fears, all the thoughts about cheating nature to get my miracle have finally dropped off my shoulders. I feel free!!!

We set up the hydroponic garden today! It was so great. It took hours, but it's going to be so worth it! Sean did most of the hard labor (of course), and then Ian and I decided what to plant and where to plant each seed. Roo watched from her exersaucer and appeared to find the whole experience very exciting.

We've planted lettuce (4 kinds), cucumbers, tomatoes, eggplant, zucchini, summer squash, watermelon, some sort of hybrid melon that's good for Florida weather, and something else that I can't remember right now, LOL! It's all set to be watered by a timer, so now all we have to do it wait for it to start growing.

I took some pictures of it so, once I get off my lazy butt and download them all, I'll put them here.

I'm wondering how may people can tell me I look "horrible". So far my mother, father, a family friend, some people in my office building, and my husband all think that I look one step away from death. That's lovely to hear!

I got Roo an appointement with the specialist tomorrow! I'm so excited! They asked if she had any vomiting... Sure thing. If it'll get her in quicker, I'll tell them anything they want to hear.

Sean's going to come with me, thank God. This is one time I could really use his support.

I called back at 4:40pm and I demanded to speak to someone. I got the head nurse. I explained that I had been told the results were in and the doctor was going to call me, but I still hadn't heard. She put me on hold f-o-r-e-v-e-r and, just when I thought I was going to throw up from nerves, she got back on the phone and told me she didn't see a report anywhere. She put me on hold again to pull her chart, came back, and told me she had no idea what I was talking about. She ended up calling the diagnostic center herself to get the report in. She told me she'd have the doctor call me back.

The doctor called back within 5 minutes and seemed a bit annoyed that I demanded an answer. He said he didn't know what I had been told that morning; he didn't have the results but they called for them since I called so much, LOL! Anyway, she has to see a pediatric urologist because she had a kidney stone-type thing in her right kidney. He isn't sure what's going on there because he felt a mass on her left side not her right, but regardless of that we have to call tomorrow to get her in to see this other doctor.

He told me not to "freak out". Yeah. Right.