I am so in love with my life right now. I am spending the days with the kids, we eat together as a family at night, and then around 7pm (after the kids are in bed), I work. I work while Roo naps too, so I get in about 5-6 hours a day. I'm not making a lot of money, but I am so happy it doesn't matter.

Today was one of those days. I got up early, had some coffee, and worked a bit. Ian got up and got himself ready for school, and then I woke Roo up so we could take him. I came home, finished up the report I was working on, and then Roo and I played outside in the gorgeous weather. The whole time I kept thinking, "Wow. This is amazing. I have no stress, I get to see all the little things that Roo does, and then I get to be the one picking Ian up from school. I get to have the whole day with my kids!"

I couldn't be happier with the choice I made. I only wish that I had made it sooner!

I love my new job. Love it, love it, LOVE IT! It's better than I could have ever imagined. I'm spending time with the kids, doing fun things with them because I'm not constantly tired and frustrated, and I am actually enjoying my life again! I don't feel panic every morning, I don't feel closed in, and I am starting to see things in a way that is different than I have been.

I'm trying to find a routine that works for us all, and it's going to take some tweaking. So far I have the basics (dropping Ian off at school, feeding Roo, working through nap, feeding Roo again, picking up Ian), but there are some other things I need to adjust and set to a schedule. I'm trying to stay flexible because there's such a learning curve with this job. I figure if I spend a month or so with my nose to the grindstone and focus really hard, I should be able to work on my social life again... If I decide I want to, that is. I'm pretty happy being home and focusing on my family and 2 or 3 good friends...