No matter how crappy I feel, being up to watch the sunrise in the morning makes me feel better. I don't know why that is; I almost feel like I'm watching my life unfold before me and I have the chance to make the day whatever I want it to be.

I am debating on going in to work or not. If I didn't have Court today I wouldn't bother, but my co-worker has covered for me a few times and I don't want to ask her to go to Court again for me. Plus, it's one of my favorite clients who's going today and I'd hate to miss it. I feel really sick though. I had a stomach ache for hours yesterday and finally broke down and took some Tums. I was able to fall asleep around 11pm, but I didn't have the most restful sleep. I still feel the ache, but at least I can breathe now. I have no idea how I'll be feeling once I start moving around... Guess that will be the true test!

I am a news junkie. I watch the news in the morning, read the headlines all day, listen to NPR on the way in to work and while at work, then watch the national news when I get home.

I'm trying to break that habit though, because everything reported makes me panic. So far this morning I've heard that the St. Petersburg Firefighters will not be getting retirement benefits (new hires), unemployment in the Bay area is higher than the rest of the State and the Nation, and that we are a Nation in crisis.

I think that last statement about says it all, don't you?

I'm trying to remain positive, but it's hard when bombarded with how much life sucks for so many people. How close are we to becoming what these poor desperate people are? With all the budget cuts I just found out about in my agency, how much longer can I count on my paycheck? If people can't afford to drive their cars, how much longer is Sean going to have a paycheck?

There are no guarantees in life, but I thought at least my job was a guarantee! Dealing with my Mom, relationship issues, and pregnancy losses, I thought I had at least one area I could rely on...

*** Edited to Add: I love how Hollywood can go on strike. I guess if I had over 20 million in my savings account I wouldn't give a shit about working either! ***

 

I'm about to disappear; my 45 Hour Continuing Education CD arrived today. I have until September 30th to complete the course, including the final exam. If I fail the exam I have 30 days to retake it or I lose my license.

This does not give me a lot of time.

I wish I could download it on to my laptop because I could then take it in to work and study. Er, by that I mean study during my lunch hour, of course. But, seeing as it's so full of viruses and freezes all the time, I have to do it on my desktop here at home. I can't run the risk of it freezing during my final, so I'm stuck.

Anyone who knows me, knows that once I start something like this I won't resurface until I'm done. So, I'll see ya'll when I finish the course!