Like everything else in life, work is an ebb and flow. I'll go for weeks doing really, really well, and then I'll have a few reports back-to-back that are just garbage. It's nothing critical, no life-altering or dangerous mistakes, but obvious mistakes that are made because of my learning disability.  The problem is that when I listen and type, I 'see' the word I'm typing as the one that I am hearing. For instance, today it was "appropriately" for "approximately." Sounds like a stupid mistake, but for me it isn't. My LD is broad and is categorized in the dyslexia category, so I'm sure you can understand how frustrating it is for me.  I'm just hoping that I get my shit together, because from what I heard today it seems that their patience is getting very thin...

Other than that, everything is great. I have no complaints, and I'm so happy being home with my kids that I actually cry at random times.

Oh! We do have an exciting new roommate living with us. For how long, I don't know, but I adore having him here!



I've named him Mouse, and from what I can find online he is a Florida Screech Owl. The kids love him; every morning Roo wakes up and says, "Owl! Hi, Owl!" and makes me take her outside to say good morning to him. Ian says good morning to him too, and when I pick him up from school he asks if Mouse is still there.  I hope Mouse sticks around, because there will be a lot of sad people here if he doesn't.

I am so in love with my life right now. I am spending the days with the kids, we eat together as a family at night, and then around 7pm (after the kids are in bed), I work. I work while Roo naps too, so I get in about 5-6 hours a day. I'm not making a lot of money, but I am so happy it doesn't matter.

Today was one of those days. I got up early, had some coffee, and worked a bit. Ian got up and got himself ready for school, and then I woke Roo up so we could take him. I came home, finished up the report I was working on, and then Roo and I played outside in the gorgeous weather. The whole time I kept thinking, "Wow. This is amazing. I have no stress, I get to see all the little things that Roo does, and then I get to be the one picking Ian up from school. I get to have the whole day with my kids!"

I couldn't be happier with the choice I made. I only wish that I had made it sooner!

I love my new job. Love it, love it, LOVE IT! It's better than I could have ever imagined. I'm spending time with the kids, doing fun things with them because I'm not constantly tired and frustrated, and I am actually enjoying my life again! I don't feel panic every morning, I don't feel closed in, and I am starting to see things in a way that is different than I have been.

I'm trying to find a routine that works for us all, and it's going to take some tweaking. So far I have the basics (dropping Ian off at school, feeding Roo, working through nap, feeding Roo again, picking up Ian), but there are some other things I need to adjust and set to a schedule. I'm trying to stay flexible because there's such a learning curve with this job. I figure if I spend a month or so with my nose to the grindstone and focus really hard, I should be able to work on my social life again... If I decide I want to, that is. I'm pretty happy being home and focusing on my family and 2 or 3 good friends...

In the course of one week I got a job, did arts and crafts with the kids every day, and got a chance to do Ian's sight words and math books with him. I got almost all the laundry done, and I even cleaned out a lot of my office room too so it looks more like and office and not a store-it-all-here room.

Friday began my formal training, and it's all done on-line. I had computer issues, and then I wasn't formally added into a chat room for official training, so I sat around almost all day wondering what was going on. I was freaking out a bit because it was like I was sitting on the edge of the very thing I have been dreaming of for 2 years, yet wasn't allowed to actually participate in it!

I got everything resolved though, so it looks like Monday will be the "real" day I start. I'm busy listening to all my training material again (there's a lot to learn on their system with regards to templates, software, and account specifics), and I'm making index cards to tape to my desk to help remind me of shortcuts on my first day.

Last night I went to see Eat Pray Love with a good friend of mine, and I wasn't too impressed. I think it was had to make a book like that "big screen" worthy, and a lot of the things I thought were important to the main characters self-discovery were either not put in the movie or were unable to be put in. I think that made the whole "experience" seem a lot less moving and amazing, yet I understand that they had to draw in "regular" people who aren't interested in the amazing outcome of mastering meditation or finding a piece of your soul you didn't even know existed. It was worth seeing though, and I plan to finish the book (I was re-reading it again before the movie came out but ran out of time), because this time around I'm getting even more out of it than the first time I read it.

I am so happy to be up and running again! I've missed my blogging outlet, that's for sure. I had to cut myself off for a month to finish school, quit my job, and start job searching again... A lot can happen in a month!

So much to catch up on, but I'll just say that I graduated with a 95% for a GPA, which was my goal.

My last day of work was yesterday, and I found a a whole bunch of less-than-charming information about a coworker of mine. She's the one I had issues with when I first started, but I didn't realize what a snake she truly was until yesterday. She obviously has a charred, black heart, and a soul that is destined for vile payback. I was going to lay it all out for my other co-workers who I met up with last night, but I decided not to. I have come a long way from gossip and the desire to create drama, so I didn't want to do something out of anger versus "the right reason." I made one comment along the lines of, "I found out that people on our Team we thought we could trust, we can't," and left it at that. Considering I was hanging out with 2 of the 3 people from our 4-person Team, I think they're bright enough to figure out what and who I meant. If they chose to continue to trust her, that's their problem. They'll figure it out, because someone with such an ugly purpose and disgusting way of living their life is destined for failure. I can only hope that I get to hear about it when it happens! On the flip side of that, I found out that a few of her less desirable character traits have not gone unnoticed by others who are higher up, and that makes me happy.